Power

Music has the ability to take me to the heights of emotion. 

Tonight, I feel so desperate, that I am allowing myself to be carried away and moved to the point of tears by a song.

What I realize is that my words will never be adequate to convey the deepest feelings of my heart. I think that music, using the power of words combined with the power of tone, volume, rhyme, instrument, and other elements does a better job of expressing emotion. And even then, it feels limited. In fact, no method of communication is fully capable of expressing what's inside. 

My heart is full and spilling over with love. I am at my breaking point I think. I am so hungry and yearning. I have been pushing and pushing for my entire adult life to become close to God, to no avail. There is this place in my heart that was filled by the love for and from someone else... and now that place has been drained.  And I feel like a new love is trying to rush in, to fill the gap.  I want that love to be God's love. I want that to be love for God and love from God. I want that specific area, at this point, to be filled only with that. 

I have been confronted multiple times this week on how I am serving. I want to serve. More than anything I want to LOVE. I desperately want to do something to make someone else's life a little less painful, and I believe that starts with love. 

This verse, doesn't exactly deal with serving, but I think it expresses the volume of love that I feel right now in my heart. 

Song of Solomon 8:7

Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away. If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned.